#5

On my quest of finding this treasure

I believed that it was you

Cuz you were the gold

The silver the diamond I never knew

And the thing about treasure

Is that you don't want to share

Never wanted you to know this

But I am insecure

Those 3am talks

Those marine line walks

Those unexpected calls were so mature

Yet your expressions so trivial

Your thoughts so bizarre

Your worries so obnoxious 

And anxiety so surreal

That sometimes I wonder

 what is real? 

And as this quest intensified within us

I got to know the demons

And I got to know the evil 

I could feel the chaos

But I chose to love the devil

Then slowly but deeply

We developed this unreal rapport

And we didn't need words 

To tell our daily report

Then the things better said 

Remained inside the head 

And yes both of us knew 

But they remained unsaid

Rapport told us things 

Which would bring imbalance

And then it became a curse 

When we opted for silence

Maybe it's not me

And maybe it's not you

But I don't want you to evolve 

Cuz you are a paradox

I'd never wanna solve

#4

Don't listen to people
they talk for mere formality
their opinion about you
doesn't have to be your reality

It's time to stop pretending
be the one who you are
rise above those insecurities
be your own superstar

They don't know you enough
but you know yourself from your birth
be the best version of you
and show them your worth

The odds against you
is just your bad luck
but whatever they say
you just don't give a fuck

You didn't choose to be like this
the fault is not yours
so stop punishing yourself
for the fault in your stars 

#2

Haunting me again,
those winters would return
through all the sleepless nights  
In cold, I'd burn. 
   
All the truths are lies
the day tells me as it passes by     
What else can i do 
Stand by the window and cry  

The winter has come
And I'm still not prepared 
waiting for the sunrise  
I'm alone and scared     
 
l wish it was a story      
I'd write a page or two  
will keep it near my heart
And protect it all mylife through  

She's like sunlight  
as sharp as a knife  
Heating me all day
In the winters of my life       

She goes away    
like the sun goes down
But I know she'd come back again
and change the weather around

All things goes back to normal
like the sun rising up from the horizon     
But again she went away      
leaving me alone   

Why such a dark night 
descends upon my window 
All dreams don't come true            
l know
But the heart doesn't accept it

#3

I'm sorry for the harsh words I'd spoken
I'm sorry that i left your heart broken
I'm sorry for making you upset
I was wrong and i now feel the regret
because I didn't give any reply
or say a good bye

So I apologize you today
I shouldn't have behaved that way
But even if we fight again someday
You'll still love me anyway
then I'd come back apologizing
cuz i love you in my own way 

#1

When the sun forgets to rise
And time stops at dawn
When fire doesn't feel hot
And all my senses are gone
When everything slows down
And all the blood gets frozen
When nothing moves out there
And I'm aware whats the reason

When days last long
Like a never ending sad song

When living without her feels a burden
And dying without her feels wrong